many feelings n thoughts engaged wit me
thoughts that are not suppose to exist
feelings that are upseting myself
reflect on myself again n again
but condition doesnt seems to turn for the better
in fact worsen everything
those feelings,ya
the left out feelings
keep haunting me nowadays.
quiet a period of time perhaps.
either true or not
I had a conclusion for myself from all those reflects
Not tat Im being left out or abandoned,
but Im the one locking myself away from people n things.everything.anything.
Rejecting unconciously
well,mayb I should declare it as "conciously" now?since I've actually figure it out.hrmm
still working out to find the root of my problem
Is there phobia or something else taking place my emotions?
Y am I acting like tat?
Its just not ME anymore.
Even my personalities distorted
the way I think.the way I speak.
GOOSHH
Wat is wrong with me?!
Problem above is only a part of those messy thoughts
there are bundles more!!!!
WTF
Getting stresser n stresser
as day pass
as results distributed
as watching friends study
as adding on chapters
anything could be my stress!!!
even when I hav to decide wat to eat for my dinner!!
my brain cant interperate in a proper way,
which mainly causes me cant choose the correct issue to stress
DAMNNN!!!!
Tiredness.
Lazyness.
Sadness.
Dissapointment.
Feels difficult to do anything.
Even breathing.
Dun feel like wanna breathe..
HELP
I NEED HELP
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